“All men dream: but not equally. Those who
dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds
wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the
dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may
act out their dream with open eyes, to make itå
possible”.
T.E. Lawrence: Seven Pillars of Wisdom
The spiritual world is “like a Bird of Paradise,
which flieth near the Eye, and toucheth it’s Pupil
with it’s beautiful Wings, and wisheth to be seen.”
Swedenborg or Blake?
Jesus says..“If thine eye (I), be
single thy whole
body will be filled with light”
so..If your whole body is filled with light your eye,
(I), will be single-minded
The corollary is also true. If thine eye is not
single you will have darkness within..so let us
examine the light within ad the single eye or I.
or..”bringing every thought into captivity”
2 Corinthians 10:5
For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but
mighty through God to the pulling down of strong
holds; Casting down imaginations, and every high
thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of
God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the
obedience of Christ;
Your True Self (Soul), is not
what you “think”.
Q What, where, when, and who is the,(your), “True
Self” or Soul..(Sol)
A Inside everyone of us resides the “true” self..liike sunshine.”
“The Kingdom of Heaven is Within”
Jesus
Q What is the true self?.
A Pure Light
Q Where is it?
A “It” fills the body, very very quietly, like the sun illuminating
an otherwise dark room.
Q When is it apparent? When can we notice it or recognize it?
A Only in the present moment, (our access to eternity is now..
only.)
Q Who is it?
A It is the real you, not the fictional person you
think you are, based on life's experiences from birth
(and maybe before birth from impressions absorbed
intrauterine, while we float in that sea of amniotic
fluid, attached by that lifeline to mother).. All
those impressions imprinted on your mind, conscious
and unconscious..all those feelings, memories, images,
interactive relationships, ie father, mother, sister,
brother, friends, enemies..none of these impressions
are or are a part of your True Self..in fact they
cloak the true self and like static in the
attic..that otherwise dark and foreboding room..they
just make noise and demand your attention
What it is not.,
it is not the body or any of the body’s needs.
It is not our thoughts no matter how lofty they may
be. It is not our accomplishments no matter how
satisfying or no matter how much of our energy and
resources we marshal to achieve our goals and desires
with our so called will power.
(You really don't have much power in your will as
you shall soon see.)
In the meantime say to yourself, “I am going to
prove this guy wrong. I do have a will to power”
I say, well then, use all that awesome will power
to simply concentrate on the second hand on your watch
or the clock on the wall with the thought “I am going
to concentrate all my powers of will, to just watch
that second hand only. I am not going to think about
anything else but that, for an extended period of
time.
What is almost immediately realized is that
after a very few seconds your mind wanders and you
forget that exercise of will power and whooosh, the
mind begins to wander all over the map. So try
again....same exercise..Ooops, my thoughts go helter
skelter completely out of my control. Verdict? No
will power to do the simplest of tasks.
(What we do have that we mistake for “will
power”, are strong I’s (inner I’s or inner
personality manifestations..thoughts..images and
imaginings etc.) in our personality..”heavy lifters”
inside, that have been trained by our life
experiences, survival instincts, defense mechanisms,
emotional urges, fits of anger, jealousy and rage
etc. to aggressively “take over” our personalities for
a spell..literally a “spell” or trance like passing
fancy, giving us the “illusory” sensation of will
“power”).
Q So what in blue blazes is this true self?
A. It is the only part of you that can objectively
discern or “sensate” the present moment and
simultaneously “witness” and monitor (To Watch! or the
watcher within), the only truly objective observer, or
the impartial witness, to all the infinite variety of
momentary and fleeting internal events, feelings,
thoughts, actions, reactions, decisions, pains,
sorrows, exaltation of joy crashing depressions,
triumphs and failures, Everything! internal!) your
actions and reactions to all the myriad impressions
streaming into you from all the senses and the body's
demands as well. Sometimes it is called “Awareness”,
sometimes “Mind” (not intellect, those are the linear or ceaseless
thought streams), sometimes in the language of psychology
“Consciousness”, in the language of religion it is
called your soul that little God spot, that resilient
and brilliant candlelight within. It is that pure
sense of the present moment unencumbered by thoughts,
feelings, bodily sensations, sensory input, it is the
field of energy that permeates the body/mind, but
since it has no accountability or substance, or
excitability from the senses, (try a sensory
deprivation experiment sometime where all you five
senses are cut off artificially or cloaked or isolated
from your immediate environment....you will go mad in
a very short time..because we are hollow people with
nothing constant inside..no rock to stand on), it has
remained virtually undiscovered by modern psychology
because psychology is preoccupied with behavior
patterns, aberrations, and personal issues. Modern
psychology is designed to make people more efficient
machines better equipped to conform to this mechanized
world of cause and effect..action and reaction..good
and evil dichotomies and moral judgments, sensory data
coming in and responses to that data organized by our
training and education to delver the goods upon
demand.
Q Why should we care about this so called true self?
It does not seem to have anything to do with our life?
A. Correct!, it has almost nothing to do with your
existence..except it is your true you..the rest of all
your actions are strictly mechanical..you are
programmed, randomly, (perhaps along with the
celestial influences of the sun, moon and planets and
stars), or religiously if you are a follower of any
particular religion in their teachings gleaned from
other teachers, (although we as born again Christians
do have a distinct advantage if we have a strong and
intimate relationship with Jesus, but that’s a big if
for most)
Our programming is instilled, absorbed, or
imprinted in a very very sophisticated way.and, like
a machine, we remain predictable in our reactions to
the myriad and random patterns, experiences, sensory
input, thoughts and feelings which we can’t seem to
control. All our bodily needs, all our thought
patterns and emotional distress are dormant and
resident inside, soaked up from our outside world and
all a result of our cultural trappings, via our
senses, in response to data streaming in from the
outside world.. Like “Sponge Bob” himself..we each
are born as sponges soaking up all the spilled
impressions surrounding us at all times.
Everyone of us are efficient, absorbent,
delightfully complex, and beautiful sponges.
Q Where did you find out about this idea?
A I first read about this radical set of ideas ( but
very real and immensely important “IF” one wants to
be set free from any and all illusions about this
“vale of tears” we call Life) ) and concepts first n
the works of P D Ouspensky, a Russian
journalist/mystic/ in his book “In Search of the
Miraculous”, about 45 years ago, and it absolutely
changed my inner world of thoughts, feelings, concepts
about ‘reality” and a whole host of other subjects
including religion and metaphysics.
Q. What did you do when you first read about this
thing called “the true self”?
A I began the arduous task of contemplating it,
meditating on it, thinking about it, reading more about it,
and working with others of like mind on deliberate “Waking Up” process.
I also read and studied “The Fourth Way”,
Ouspensky's later book, which is full of questions and
answers about the system or The Work, or The
Ouspensky/Gurdjieff School
”The Work”..and “The School” are names that
have been associated with this unique and unusual
insight into the human condition. (“The Work” and
“The System” or “The Fourth Way” are names given to a
very ancient body of knowledge that usually appears in
history as the “esoteric” teachings, or hidden
teachings or sometimes as I use it The Ancient Lost Teachings of Jesus
Restored)
”“The Work” was chosen as part signifier of
the system which Gurdjieff taught to Ouspensky and
then Ouspensky published in his “In Search of the
Miraculous” which introduced the system to the general
public in the 1930’s.
“The Fourth Way” is the name given by
Gurdjieff to signify and differentiate this system
from the three other traditional ways that an
individual could attain “Consciousness” development
and spiritual growth. The three traditional ways
required a” retreat” into a special cloistered
environment that was divorced and isolated from ordinary society such
as a monastery, ashram or special schools
dedicated to strict exercises and disciplines away
from the distractions of this world.
The way of the monk, he way of the yogi, and the way of the fakir,
are the names of those disciplines..the "Fourth Way",
is more exemplified by what we have learned about the
Sufi philosophy..that of “living in the world but not
of it”, and it offers a more wholesome or well rounded
way, where the individual is taught how to use the
friction of everyday life as a tool for psychological leverage, and as a
energy source to convert negative thoughts, feelings and circumstances
into positive internal and vital energetic use in order to “feed” the
“True Self” consciously, with intention and awareness as the operative
and cognitive state of mind. It is a strange but the fact of human
nature that people are very attached to their negative emotions of
morose, melancholy, anger, jealously, hate, greed, suspicion, and even
that big bogey man “lust. They are taught all these feelings from an
early age in the home, school yards, workplace, in the entertainment
industry, newspapers, and even self generated emotions like self pity.
anxieties of all kinds, and so forth. Nowhere are we taught that all
these negative emotions are really not ours in the sense that we can
jettison them at any time and “change our mind” and switch our thoughts
to a positive cannel like using the remote on our TV sets with a push
of a button..but most people revel in their angst and delusions..it
gives them the old familiar sensations that have attached to them from
an early age so they think that all these thoughts and feelings are
theirs..”they own them.”
The Fourth Way teaches how to “not react”
mechanically or negatively to life's unending
challenges and our seemingly unending negative
thoughts and feelings. To “catch” them before they
can manifest for example. The” catching them” is the
key to the entire system. The speed of emotions and
thoughts is so quick that catching thoughts before
they can manifest is nearly impossible at first. Once
you have developed that “objective self” or that
“detached observer within”..then you have a “Catcher”
equipped to first recognize the incoming missile
(negative thought) and capture it and deflect it and dispel it before it
can manifest itself in a harmful or destructive
form..either to oneself or towards others. Only that
“Catcher” or the detached observer..that true self is
capable of that sudden action that can catch and stop
the “mechanical” reaction of patterned behaviors.
“Conscience” is an aspect of this “Catcher” and has
the feature of “knowing” when an act or a thought or
a feeling is appropriate and can monitor all the
mechanical manifestations whirling around inside each
of us.
Most people operate on the assumption that
their feelings or thoughts are their own, and that
negativity for example is a normal and natural
condition of the mind..but it is not..it is a learned
condition, a mechanical condition that consumes
tremendous amounts of vital energy needlessly. That
is just one of the basic examples of the value of
the Fourth Way. When one retreats from this world
into “artificial” environments, and monastic orders
one becomes less able to function socially and serve their fellow man
who lives and acts and reacts in normal society.
There are now many books and many “schools” that have been
established as a result of the Ouspensky/Girdjieff pioneer efforts to
communicate this esoteric modality to the public in the twentieth
century.. This new psychological paradigm and modality (actually it's
very ancient in its’ origins and was taught by the greatest philosophers
in the East and the West even before Christ) has been taught in every
generation of recorded history. It has taken many different “cultural”
forms, and has many different personalities and spokesmen each with a
slightly different vocabulary and choice of words and phrases to share
the penultimate concept to the public at large. The penultimate insight
or the most “inclusive” and “unitarian” “holistic” (think spherical or
think circle), concept that describes the state of mind necessary to
experience this transforming idea, is sometimes found in the most
unlikely places and in the most often overlooked sources.
An American example is Ralph Waldo Emerson, someone we all have
heard about but unfortunately is now mostly untaught in our haphazard
educational system. Emerson has been marginalized now as an old
fashioned and quaint philosopher of the nineteenth century and has not
been required reading for several generations. But if one returns to
Emerson one will find pearls of wisdom unlike anyone else has had in
recent times, to offer us with his essays of crystal clear observations
and critiques of our society. Emerson's sometimes “mystic” and lofty
remarks are a rich field of study and in fact if one is interested in
the concept of “spiritual illumination” or metaphysics, or
Transcendentalism in general you cannot be better served than Emerson’s
thoughts. Here is an example of Emerson addressing that mystic state of
mind that ennobles the individual to achieve the mountain top point of
view of “the true self” and the “true self’s mental and intellectual
vista.
“There is one mind common to all men. Every man is an inlet to the
same, and to all of the same. He that is admitted to the right of
reason is made a freeman of the whole estate. What Plato had thought
we may think, what a saint has felt, we may feel. what has befallen at
any time any man, he can understand. Who has access to the universal
mind, is party to all that is or can be done., for this is the only and
sovereign agent.
Of the works of this mind, history is the record...
The human mind has wrote history, and thus must read it. The
Sphinx must solve her own riddle. If the whole of history is in one
man, it is all to be explained from individual experience...
Of the universal mind, each man is one more incarnation...”
Another example of this rare and unfortunately esoteric insight is
found in the writings (difficult and abstract to the extreme), the
twentieth century philosopher Ludwig Wittgenstein. In his “Notebooks”
he says..
“The philosophical I is not the human body or the human soul with
the psychological properties, but the metaphysical subject, the boundary
(not a part) of the world. The human body, my body in particular, is a
part of the world among others, among animals, plants, stones, etc.
etc.
Whoever realizes this will not want to procure a preeminent place for
his own body...
The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is
the source of all true art and science. He to whom this emotion is a
stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as
good as dead: his eyes are closed."-Albert Einstein
So it is not that we do not all have access to this so called
“esoteric” traditions and knowledge and teachings at all. It is simply
that we each need to recognize the value of it. Once we can place a
value on it as any commodity we need (or think we need) we can pay
attention to it and create it inside. It is an act of creation and/or
birth inside. It takes conception to understand it and growth to
develop it,which requires nourishment from healthy sources, just like we
are already familiar with in our organic life we are experiencing..but
the nutrients are something not bestowed by ordinary nature..even though
nature shows us many metaphors that can be studied to facilitate and
remind us of the “transformative” nature of this rare but human
potential.
Keep in mind the fact that “the true self” is really not connected
to this world in any “appreciable” way. Our senses and our bodily needs
and our emotional needs all are in opposition or at least uninterested
in that mercurial and elusive “true self”. Once we recognize the value
of that unusual state of mind, and desire it for ourselves, above all
else, then we can begin the slow arduous and sometimes painful (we will
have to jettison some very old habits, addictions, patterns of behavior,
routines, mistaken egoistic attitudes and prideful familiar modes of
thinking and feeling, and often in a religious context self
righteousness), process of disciplining and practicing the efforts
mentally, emotionally and intellectually to develop that singular (and
solitary) state of mind. I say solitary because it may require solitary
episodes where we retire or retreat from the bee hive lifestyles and
rat races that all to easily beset us.
What is the value of that unearthly (and unnatural) state of mind?
Well it is the Liberator..it sets us free form ignorance first of
all..it begins the truly necessary “education” that we need to escape
the truly machine like condition we are all victims of. It has other
names and words to define that true you..it is the hero or heroine..it
is the Jester that can poke fun at ourselves and the misplaced obsessive
appetites of society at large..it is the light within..the hackneyed
term that connotes the desire to transcend this obviously limited and
currently hazardous world we inhabit. It is the divine spark that
illuminates and animates everyone. It is the “Life” that we all talk
about and the biggest and most unsolved question we can ask of ourselves
and it is the mystery of our very existence.
Now I must add this is not as simple as I seem to make it. There
are many forces, natural as well as super natural acting against the
success of this effort..this set of disciplines and yes this spiritual
warfare. There will be battles and struggles of serious consequence
that may require truly “heroic” individual efforts of very unique
proportions. As you begin the “liberation” from your normal “reality”
beliefs, and as you begin tunneling yourself out of this prison you have
“voluntarily” submitted too, you will begin noticing your fellow
prisoners and their unease with your new found excitement and
enthusiasm, and you just may encounter opposition from your friends and
family members that are rather trapped in their old ways and old
patterns and learned habits, thoughts, values, interests, and
conclusions that feed their particular “reality principle”
And then there were later books by students
of The Work, like Rodney Collin, who wrote “The Theory
of Celestial Influence.” It is an update of Ouspensky’s works
Ouspensky’s books are somewhat theoretical, but also contain much of a
very practical nature, especially about the fact that we are truly
asleep and how to wake up. Much of what he discusses is the need for a
new source of energy to feed and
nourish our True Self; a new source of energy, a higher yet more subtle
kind of energy that is around us but not needed since we can operate
quite well or at least quite efficiently without it.
to be continued...