"Did you know that God is a girl, and his name is Eris?" Simple words from a friend I knew long ago that changed my outlook on things.

I was brought up in a strict christian house, attending a strict christian private school. But something always seemed off, the whole idea of god sitting up there giving a shit what anyone did or didn't do seemed silly. Hes god! He knows everything, sees everything, loves everyone, so why did he care if I ate a steak on friday?

After many years (Sophmore year in High School), I finally convinced my family to get me the fuck out of the private school I was in. Just for asking questions and looking for my own answers, I was "doubtful" and a "troublemaker". Well, so be it.

When a good friend finally asked me about Eris, the whole thing clicked. God is what you make of it (the concept), and for me, I saw that chaos and disorder are just as necessary to the human experience as happy puppy-dogs-tails. Under pure order, we stagnate. Under pure chaos, we tear ourselves apart. Truth and life are in the balance, in the coin itself, not one side or the other.