Original post at: http://www.unorule.com/am-i-good/
Is my nature good or bad? Is man a wolf to man? How I can be good?
It may seem pointless. But from experience, the law of Karma is true. Very subtle rewards for the good, very effective when I was bad, even when I did not feel that I was being so. Ignorance, or even non-believing, of a law does not relieve me of responsibility for breaking it. It would be like if I did not believe in gravity, anyway, I cannot float freely.
How I can know if what I do or think is good or bad?
Life is a game we are forced to play without knowing the rules. Without all the rules, or rather, without well-defined rules, we wander through life learning the hard way. Received blows, and glows we give.
My conclusion at this point is that we all are good. I rely on the inability to do anything consciously that we feel as bad.
There is difference between knowing and feeling.
Conscious is a personal feeling. Self is the only one who can feel sincere remorse for its actions.
Others judge us according to their consciences, by their rules. If I do not feel them the same, I’m not bad from my point of view.
Then, we cannot consciously do anything we feel as bad, consciously. Assuming that we are our conscious, not our subconscious.
Although it turns out that I do things that I feel as bad a posteriori. Could be considered thesubconscious popping up a weakness of the conscious. In that case, the subconscious would be bad.
Conscious power lies in our memory for our past mistakes. But a finite power. Finally we have to let us carry away by feelings.
I argue that I am what does not have a cause or goal in me. For example, the simple fact I like the color blue has no logic, no reason or goal. Would that be the subconscious? Personally I rely on the theory of the white canvas. All in us has a cause, even if we don’t know it. Me liking the blue could be a nice feeling I had in the past that I don’t remember.
Subconscious would employ that facts that make me feel good without knowing why as a support to emerge against the conscious. That would be temptations.
Rethinking. We are our conscious. Knowledge and memories… finite. We are living a life without knowing the rules, then we cannot reason if what we do is good or evil. Our subconscious may be as a father whose only way of teaching us is to make us feel our mistakes, so its fight for us to commit them.
Then both the conscious and the subconscious are good. The conscious by not going against the feelings. The subconscious by having good intentions. Good and evil, yin and yang. Good thinking it is good. Evil as a wiser good forced to fight against good to show in what it is wrong.
Conclusion, we are good by nature.
All this precludes any definition of what is good a priori. We can only really learn it afterwards. People with more experience have more wisdom in this scope. But they can create the rules, knowledge, not feelings.
Actually, we only can have clues of what is good or evil.
I tried to define it in a command: ‘you shall not harm‘. I keep defending it completely. The problem is that I’m keep hurting without knowing it anyway. The harmed person is the only one who can define what is pain for it, a priori it is very complicated.
A clue to distinguish if something is good or evil is my proposal of definition of what is evil: ‘evil is doing what one condemns‘. Actions that I consider evil in others, if I do them, I’m being evil. Again, feelings are very powerful. If I finally feel I have to do that which I condemn, I will end doing it.
The struggle of reason against feelings. I’m sorry but I surrender to feelings.
All I can do is separate the good from the bad feelings. And again, differentiate between good or bad ones is another feeling. I cannot be guided by accepted social rules, but ultimately I have to feel them.
I may feel that greed is a bad feeling. But a market shark do not. It’s very personal.
Curious how the deadly sins fit into what might be considered bad feelings: lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy, pride. I may join all in selfishness.
Trying to simplify it seems as if everything bad feeling had a satisfaction punctual, personal, immediate and intense. Very easy to succumb to them against the true good altruistic feelings with their subtle reward. The really difficult is that the subtle reward of good feelings cannot be forced. If I do acts of charity to feel good, I would be selfish.
Real rewards of the good feelings come when they are sincere and altruistic, and so… unexpected. Nothing that conscious can control, against all temptations.
All I can say about is to keep following my feelings that I consider good so that when I feel the reward as such a sense of happiness that will be well worth all the sacrifices.