Open? Sources... here is my history and my teachers... First, it was an art teacher that taught us all a huge amount of inner knowledge and insight by creating an environment of "art awakening", a school where we learned how to express oneselve in any form whatsoever. And there were no grades..we had to grade ourselves each quarter. (this was a college level class and it changed my life and turned me into a artist (or wannabe artist at that time), and gave my life direction and purpose and focus and a sensitivity towards nature..it literally "opened my eyes" to nature for the first time. This man (Frances Coelho..later Dean of Arts at San Francisco State when Hayakawa was "dictating" his fascist semantics antics while at the helm at the college), ), also taught us to "go to the original source", in whatever we were interested in whether politics, religion, art, or simply unbridled curiosity about All and Everything that life presents. I was twenty one and as a young adult it was in that environment where many of us were "turned on" to self expression in all its myriad forms and with the added responsibility of "judging” or grading ourselves, (which surprisingly we judge ourselves very low usually, because we can plainly see others that are more advanced working all around us so the tendency is to belittle or look down on our own progress, we are our own most severe critics in that internal world.. assuming we have a conscience also)
After that experience I moved on and discovered Deetjen.."the man of highest being", ut suffice it to say, he introduced me to an invisible world and opened my eyes and mind to "metaphysics:.. and deep (dark) politics, (He had known HItler intimately in Munich in the early twenties before Hitler morphed into a yogi (Bhakti) of the black path), and Deetjen began sensitizing me to another world..an internal world because it was at that same time (1962) that I read Ouspensky and Gurdjieff for the first time and discovered my one and only "self" slumbering meekly and silently inside. So Deetejn became my father figure and teacher and guide for several more years (and still remains as that iconic “man of highest being” because of the experiences he engineered for my growth and evidence that he manifested, that he was not pulling my leg in his telling of his stories about his "destiny" and his "meetings with remarkable men", including Rudolph Steiner, Oswald Spengler (Decline of the West), Ludwig Wittgenstei (a MUST read about this..this highly acclaimed Philosopher of the past century man and his relationship with Hitler is the book "The Jew of Linz", in which you learn that they met first a classmates in Linz at the age of 13..both briiliant students of Schoepenhauer and his still esoteric Eastern metaphysics essays about "No Mind", usually edited out of his collected works since it is Occult and deals with that "taboo" subject of "Magic" , and G. I. Gurdjietff at the the foot of the Great Pyreamid where Girdjieff in a "coded" remark in his "Meetings with Remarkable Men", calls Deetjen, not by name of course, "the man of highest being", which he was..but that takes a little more explanation folks), a. He also was a friend of Krishnamurti, another messenger sent down here as an agent and teacher of the school of self awakening.)
Then another man became my teacher, a man that developed a "new angle" in my inner work. He taught me about that radiant and unlimited source of life and its powers and its huge supply of light and infinite energy, and how to channel that energy into the eyes and hence through the "pipeline" it pours into that golden cup inside, that true self, that luminous sphere that corresponds to sun above us all, that propagates, illumines, enercises, and “enlivens” and littererally gives us life itself, .the Sun.. the most intelligent entity we can experience on our pitiful condition as sleepwalkers and spiritual zombies, hell bent on self destruction as a race.. as we "collectively and simultaneously strive towards “self development” and growth as individuals. Today we stand collectively and individually on the razors edge of history...not knowing which side we will fall..or rise upon. Another teacher I discovered and submitted to as a student and novitiate, began his discoveries and research in Peru, the same year that Rodney Collin , an advanced “Gurdjieffian” (see his magiterial book “The Theory of Celestial Influence”), met his fate in 1957 when he “stumbled” then tumbled down a great height, mysteriously, after gazing with alarm and shock at a huge statue of Jesus on a mountain top in the distance. Collin fell from that stone tower in Lima after his remarkable journey into the deeply buried remains and artifacts of antiquity, neath the thick dense loam of North and South America's long buried secrets, and long awaited discovery of this hemisphere's inestimable value as a source for enlightenment and inspiration.
Collin’s efforts to study this hemispheres ancient but lost legacy will someday equal the ancient Egyptian treasures of knowledge and mystery hidden under the sands and stones of that other, “Old World”, Gurdjieff called “pre sands” Egypt or what we now call Atlantis the buzzword of the Pre flood civilization that biblical Noah floated away from. Collin was led intuitively and fatefully (I suggest by the “Invisible College” of higher beings that guide humanity into learning about the metaphysical reality that permeates this world), into an investigation of the solar cultures of antiquity, the Inca, the Maya, the Toltec, and the Aztec, and wondered what was behind their highly sophisticated evidences of a golden age, (before they all degenerated into bloodletting, as their cousins across the Atlantic ocean.).
First Collin, then later, my "solar" system mentor, Gene Savoy, discovered a common “golden” thread woven in all those ancient cultures, that was deeply buried in their psychic mentations, stories, legends, and sometimes hieroglyphic writings, and almost forgotten memories, that of the hero, known as Quetzelcoatl to the North American population, Kukulkan to the Mayans and Viracocha to the Peruvians and South American peoples, that “personage” that brought them the architecture (pyramids), the calendar system, (we are seeing and hearing about today in the interest in the 2012 phenomenon), mathematics (the Mayans invented or conceived of the quotient of zero before anyone else on the planet. It was symbolized in their coded and enigmatic stone carvings and monuments, as a "fleshless human jawbone”..but more of that another time).
That very esoteric subject brings us to the doorstep of the holy of holies,, the inner chamber of the Temple of Knowledge and Wisdom, where the meaning and purposes of the legendary Crystal Skull, (about which, I am reserving for a later time, when we get past all the psychic booby traps, angry upstart natives, and “crystalized” doctrines and dogmas that have so enraptured otherwise intelligent and quasi enlightened brothers and sisters in here, (In the meantime visit my web site http://www.thegreatskull.com for an introduction to its fabulous existence) Then later, and after a few have "rediscovered” that wondrous Open Mind needed to truly explore and investigate what this hemisphere, this "lost continent of the Americas” has underneath its jungle growth and long ignored history..just waiting to be "eaten alive" as food for that starved and lonely True Self, in preparation for the final acts in this cosmic drama unfolding on this fragile and abundantly interesting planet, a few million miles from the sun...our source and Sol and "True" Self transformer...I will be happy to share with you
. After spending a few years under his guidance and digesting his visions and revelations about the sun and its spiritual nutrients and its purpose in “burning away the dross” of our human nature and leaving traces of the “spiritual” gold that we all adore and seek, I come to the fork in the road, a totally unexpected and surprising junction, where I was shocked to my very soul or soles, when a friend introduced me to Jesus in a moment of time. That encounter with that personage totally and completely transformed my life and my orientation towards "reality" and the endless, boundless, inner world we have to play in and with, and in that world, immerse ourselves in..that field of energy..that “only evidence” we have as individuals of a “higher reality”..an invisible kingdom that we all have heard so much about, and to some degree each has experienced, and that so many explorers before us have investigated and so many treasures have been brought forth, with so many tales of heroism and infamy that we are left in a morass of wonder, amazement, debate about, bloodletting, wars, incarcerations, tortures, food for lions, empires rising and falling around, books written about, monasteries built, academies started, occupations created, schools formed, teachers and students gathered galore, All and Everything one can imagine on All and Every level conceivable..All inside each and every one of us here.
But by far the biggest shock of All, that experience gave me, was the amazing realization and awareness that G-d, ( that “Most Holy Sun Absolute” that Gurdjieff acclaimed and put between the pages of his over 1200 page book "All and Everything", who had been, before my sudden realization of His personal interest in my “person” ..a far distant phenomenon..an amazing but elusive and rarely experienced being of some kind), was actually my Father..not the sperm father that I had almost no affiliation or association with, but my Father “spiritually”, my “True” Father, the originator of All and Everything there is and furthermore, He loved me to death.… All of that lifetime of my “higher” education first in the arts, then in the elements of metaphysics, then in the discovery of my True Self and the legacy of Gurdjieff and his magical book All and Everything, then my discovery of the Peruvian school that taught me how and why the self needs to feed off the sun, then actually meeting the Sun of Righteousness (see Malachi the last book in the Old Testament for his vision of the coming Sun of Rightousness..then shortly after that Jesus was born in Bethlehem and the rest is mystery..er..ah History) Himself to crown my personal fate or destiny..I can honestly say “I have been blessed and loved beyond measure by His matchless Grace not at all by my works (lest I would have reason boast)